Sunday 26 June 2011

stuck

I'm stuck. I have a lot of issues in my head,but i can't share with anyone.

1. I want to say it to people i trust,but i think it's not good to burden them with that kind of issues,since they have their own life.

2. I want to let it out in the facebook,using metaphores, but i'm scared some people will 'touched' by it (though it's not for them) or annoyed by it.

3. I want to let it out in this blog, but... I don't know. One day, people who are close to me will read this blog,and they might read the 'issues' post,then, they might hate me for that.

This is really painful,keeping things to yourself. but at least,this post helps a little bit. Lighten up the burden :)

Friday 24 June 2011

life without television

Our television broke down,and so my brother sent it for repair. I thought it will be a boring night without it,but actually,nights are better without it. First night without television,my dad,bro and I take turns to go online,since there is only one PC and one internet line huhu then,nights after that,my dad seems to conquer the PC the whole night **sigh~~ and so,my brother went out and me,trying very hard to figure out other activities. Amazingly, I can't find one. Suddenly my life become bored without television. But then, I found myself involve in a lot of thinking and flashback.

The television is out,but the radio is there,lying on the shelves,looking old :p I switched it on and tuned to Lite FM. It feels like I'm in the 80's in our old house. During that time,cable tv doesn't exist. There are only 3 tv channels,and not so many entertainment programs on air at night. Besides,my brother and I were not allowed to watch television at night.  It was homework/study session for us. And so,my mother will switched on the radio instead.

As I was laying around in the living room,trying to figure out any activities, I was thinking,there are lots of things we can do than wasting our time in front of the television. I went to the book shelves and grab one of my Reader's Digest series and start to read. Then, I just realised there are a few articles that I missed,or maybe I skipped it (don't remember) because it didn't look interesting that time. But actually,they are not that bad at all :)

I even have the time to practice my piano. Well,actually,I do have a lot of time to practice before,but they have been wasted in front of the television. There you go, 'the bad influence of television' haha
People will say,if you don't have a television,you won't know what happen to the world. WRONG!! That is why Newspapers were invented!!! Besides, don't you know,the 'news people' get their news from the internet?? lalalala

My conclusion is,life won't be that miserable without television. Why don't you try it out.... ^_^

P/S: I remember my dad told my bro and me "Watching too much of television make you stupid. The view of you watching the television looks stupid as well.  Your brain shuts down from everything but the television. Too much of television will kill you someday"

Wednesday 22 June 2011

kecewa

Tema kehidupan pada hari ini adalah 'kecewa'.

Kenapa ada ibubapa yg ada anak lemah dlm pelajaran,last minit baru mau hantar anak pegi tuisyen. Kalau yang ndak ambik exam besar ndak pa la jugak. Ini,mo UPSR sudah. UPSR berapa bulan jak lagi. Tu budak,mendarab pun ndak pandai. Buat sifir pun salah-salah. Stress bah cikgu yang mengajar. Bukan budak tu yang menangis sebab kena marah-marah cikgu. Tapi cikgu yang mau menangis, risau tu budak yang langsung ndak peduli samada dia jawab betul ka tidak tu soalan.

Kenapa budak-budak ni harus jadi begini??

Kecewa!! :(

Monday 16 May 2011

Friday the 13th

Wats up with Friday the 13th?? It's my birthday,ngehngehngeh....
nothing bombastic happened on my birthday this year. Its just a normal day lalala...but,my FB wall is full of wishes from friends n family (thank u very much for the wishes ^_^) mommy bought me a cake,BIG one :)


My birthday cake ^_^

This is from my bestfriend. Got this from mail hihi thanks nai ^_^


Mom said they r from her,dad n my bro...kahkahkah

this card is from mom's colleague
Choco from my student,Kemdelyn. she's leaving KK for uitm ^_^

This,I bought for myself heh (kesian....)
 so?? nothing bombastic right?? well,Happy birthday to me. hope this year,will be a good year. hope to fulfill more dreams ^_^

Monday 9 May 2011

God is Generous....

God is GENEROUS!! Yes. He might take something from you and give you something better.

Exam almost finish. 1 more paper to go. The Gambus PLUS concert is done. Feel proud to b 1 of the musician. Aku taula,aku bukan violinist yg hebat sgt. I don't sit front desk,I'm not the concert master and my violin doesn't hv clip mic. So,what??!! At least,I'm not the one who said this embarassing sentence " Everybody 'Concert A'"!! It's not 'Concert A' ok Missy!!! It's "A Concert'!!!!!!!!! sungguh memalukan la ko. Nasib baik ko bkn concert master for MPYO ka,MPO ka or NSO!! Young lady, u still hv sooooo far away to go. Jgn la belagak dulu. Bila org bagi nasihat,cuba2la terima nasihat org tu kan. mgkn ada betulnya wpun ko ndak setuju. Jgn temberang dulu sm aku. Ko layakkan diri ko masuk MPYO dulu br ko buli tambirang sm aku,ok daling?? Anyway, enuff of this "perasan bagus' young lady. I had fun playing in this concert,apa ndak, boleh dikatakan dream come true la. Selalu main lagu2 klasikal,lagu2 pop ja dlm okestra, tp in this recent concert dapat main ROCK oooo....!!! Mmg ROCK gilak!!! Man Keedal,aku ndak kisah rambut dia,yg penting feel dia main gitar,buat aku mo main byk kali utk dia HAHAHHAHA sheesh!! feel abis.

Abis concert,aku mati kutu d rumah. Telampau free mengkali,trus jd bodo termangu dpn FB. Last2,aku install Sims2,tp ndak berjaya. bodo tul. Ni la ni,masalah sm Vista. Stress!!! (lama gilak sdh aku mo main ni game. dulu2 pernah main,tp brenti sbb tlampau addicted,aku lupa mo mkn,mandi dan tidur hahahah) Lalu aku mengubati hati yg kecewa,aku layan drama korea. Boys over flowers. Haish!! crita budak2 btl. Aku pun hairan cmana budak2 pmpuan zaman skrg ni bole suka dgn hero2 yg cantik dan pakai mekap ni. Dulu drama korea manada hero2 gini.

Next issue, exam praktical Trinity Board coming soon,this friday. Aku stress dgn pieces accompaniment utk student violin aku. eeee!!! Aku malas main piano lagu2 klasikal sdh. Tlampau byk note. Mcm mo nangis praktis ni. Anyway, stress2 ini telah diubati dengan khabar gembira pada hari ini hahaha Kemdelyn,one of my violin student is accepted in Uitm Music Diploma!! hou yeah!!! Hopefully dia berjaya la di sana! Atttuukk!!! skema ayat.

Akhir kata, God is generous. He gave me the sad feeling so I'll be grateful for what I already have and I do. Then,He gave me good news as return to heal the sadness. Thank you God!! ^_^

p.s:: I know the Sims2 issue is very2 tiny,not a big deal. But though it is a tiny issue, it still can teach us about life,right?? heheheh